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I was sitting and reflecting on what God has been teaching me lately through scripture and a few books I'm also reading and the biggest theme I keep coming back to is how Paul met with people on their turf to witness to them just like Jesus did.
"To the Jews I became as a Jew, in order to win Jews. To those under the law I became as one under the law (though not being myself under the law) that I might win those under the law." 1 Corinthians 9:20
This wasn't him becoming sinful or falling in step with the world but was him sinking himself into the depths of these people's lives, enough to relate to them so they also cared enough to bring him in. I bring it up because I actually had a moment with this after praying God would present me with these opportunities.

I am amazed at how immediate His response is when we are praying in line with His heart. 

I started a conversation with a girl whom I don't normally connect with on a personal level and a topic was brought up that I happened to have a little bit of knowledge on because a few people around me had been through it. It was amazing how easy and fluid the conversation was and how deep it went despite it being such a "superficial" topic. What I thought would be a light and surface level chit chat became a meaningful and intimate way of growing into relationship. 

I walked away simply amazed by how deep a conversation like that could go and how in a conversation like that, that I might have thought would have been pointless and superficial, was exactly what she needed to grow into a deeper relationship with me. I take no credit for entering this with such kindness and grace. That was simply God answering my prayer and loving her through me.

I'm just beyond grateful that I can walk away getting that much closer to loving on someone I would never have thought to love for Christ and with being taught how important it is to let Jesus take over how we witness and leave out the cloudy legalism that's so easy to accompany us. 
God allowed me to enter her world and love on her without even bringing me anywhere close to sinning. I guess this is what it looks like to be in the world but not of the world. 

I feel sometimes topics are brought up and we can't even imagine how certain subjects might lead to glorifying Christ but we are so limited by our 20/20 vision. We might be so quick to judge the situation or say "I can't talk about that because there's no way I would do that", and not because it's black and white sinful but because we feel like we need to monitor other people's moral standards. This isn't the way Jesus did it and this isn't the way we should be doing it. 

If I am lucky enough to have someone bring me into their world, enough to share the depths of their heart, I have to jump on that opportunity to enter in and celebrate or cry with them. When we are invited into someone's home we are a guest, we don't start pulling down their art work and pull up their carpet because we don't like the colour. We take the time to see the beauty in their differences, their tastes, and how they are expressing themselves. When we are invited into the heart of people around us our response should be the same. 
The thing she was excited about wasn't something I would have chosen for myself and was even something I could have listed off 100 reasons not to take part in, but that wasn't my place. I wouldn't have been shining Christ and I would have been pushed out of any chance of intimacy with her ever again. I want to be here to love everyone, exactly where they are at because that's exactly how Jesus loved and continues to love me. 

I make choices that I know Jesus looks at and says, If you chose "this" it would have been easier or better, but instead He celebrates with me and cheers me on. He loves me through it all and gently waits for me to check my compass again.


“I worry the Christian community has accepted an insidious shift from laboring for others to prioritizing our own rights. We’ve perpetuated a group identity as misunderstood and persecuted, defending our positions and preferring to be right over being good news. We’ve bought the lie that connecting with people on their terms is somehow compromising, that our refusal to proclaim our moral ground from word one is a slippery slope. It has become more vital to protect our own station than advocate for a world that needs Jesus, who came to us, wrapped in our skin, speaking our language. If we were not too beneath Christ, who died for us while we were still sinners, then how dare we take a superior position over any other human being? How lovely is a faith community that goes forth as loving sisters and brothers rather than angry defenders and separatists.” 
― Jen Hatmaker, Interrupted: When Jesus Wrecks Your Comfortable Christianity

It's time for us to make people belong far before they choose to believe!


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I'm Prone to Wander.


That's how I've always been. Some say I have a free spirit, some say I'm unstable, and some say I'm full of faith and ready to leap.


I love change, I thrive on it actually. The more movement, the more I feel at home and safe.

I love the thrill of something new and before God set my feet on his firm foundation, this trait would often lead me to run at the hint of the first breeze. It would leave me anxious and uneasy when stability and permanence crept up to my door.

As I've spent time with this I've decided that this trait, or whatever you choose to call it, is both a product of the often swirling and spinning world I grew up in, where it never felt safe to set my feet down, and simply the beautiful and unique way God has made me.

Having this freedom to jump at any moment, move at any call, and go with the flow has made life easier for me but I always felt it was a symptom of being broken. Spending my life never wanting to sit still or settle down made me feel lost and unstable. I felt as though I was a burden to my call as a mom and a danger to the domestic life.

I didn't fit in with where I was supposed to be in this stage of my life, so I felt lost and confused. Constantly in search of weights to tie around my ankles to keep me from floating away.

It's taken a while for God to chip these lies away in my life. It's taken His endless patience, grace, and gentle whispers to finally teach me that I am not broken.
The most freeing moment of my life, apart from being found by Jesus, was when I was told that satan was twisting my words around and that I am not unstable but am instead responsive to the Spirit. This was the beginning of a whole new acceptance of not only who I am and how I was made but of the purpose and call God has placed on my life.

I was given permission to be exactly who God made me and I was loosed from the burden of feeling like who I was was simply a product of the brokenness and pain that was inflicted on me throughout my life.

It's beautiful to imagine how the Spirit of God works and how in some small way God has made me someone that effortlessly flows with that when I'm in step with Him.  There are so many verses that describes the Spirit as moving, dwelling, coming upon, resting upon, guiding, abounding and so many more.
What a freedom and relief to untie those ankle weights and just let go. To trust God enough to know He will ground me just enough to not float too far away. I now sit with God in disciplining myself to recognize the moments when it is time to sit and rest and wait. To know that I do need to be refuelled and I can't run on fumes but to also know that He has "knitted me together" and that He not only knows me better than I know myself but He loves me far more than that. He cherishes me.

I am me and that's perfectly ok.


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I want to gather up these roots like a skirt and carry them on the wind. 
I want to go,
go where none have touched yet,
go beyond my rational and stretch to the edges of my dreams.
And as my roots ache for the depths, instead I will dance and lift them where ever you lead. 
Weightless as a song, take this heart among the lost and lonely.
Let me lift the ones weighted down by the busy and help me to bring them into your rest. 
You've made me as wild as a colt destined for the horizon. 
Don't let the rush of life settle me but teach me to dream.
To live life on the wings of the unknown.
The freedom of uncertainty and the confidence of knowing you've already touched the end.
Use this wandering heart for more than pointless chatter.
Don't let me slip into the suits and ties and the rat race of the nine to fives.
But give me childlike wander, let me be playful and never lose these quick feet and this faithful saunter. 
One thing I've been noticing a lot lately is the view our world has placed on children and having more children and it brings a great sadness to my heart.



All around me I've witnessed conversations, when summed up, point to the conclusion that our children are a burden and having multiple is a hinderance. These may seem like harsh accusations but I know I'm not the only one who has witnessed this and I will sadly but fully admit I have also been a culprit of this attitude.

Having children is hard and no matter how hard we try there are moments when we get sucked into the selfish mentality of this world. So when children come into the picture and plans change they are easy targets.

I also feel this recent battle between stay at home moms and working moms and even the admirable attempt to smooth it over has left a bruise on the way we view our children.

As I'm spending time listening to God and trying to embrace His view on children I'm feeling more convicted for my own part in this but I'm also watching God smooth and refine that area of my heart into one that loves and adores children. The more I surrender my own selfishness the more I find myself smiling as I pick up the tiny pieces of rice off the dining room floor and treasuring the silly, yet loud, noises I didn't know something so small could make.

My children aren't a burden or a barrier. My selfishness is.

Psalm 127:3-5 says
"Behold children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children of one's youth.
Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with his enemies in the
gate."

God loves children and Jesus' ministry was the perfect example of that. Jesus adored them and he used examples of us being like children as a good thing multiple times in scripture. Do I think we should all have ten kids? No, I don't think that's what this Psalm is meaning exactly either but I also don't think we should be quick to judge those who do.

I feel truly blessed to be able to watch my two babies grow and if it ends with two then I will cherish every single moment with them but if God calls me to put my plans on the side and have more children then I will go into it with a heart more like Christ and be thankful for the gift of growing and directing more hearts to Him. If we have a kingdom vision I think it will be easy for us to see the great joy in sending more soldiers into battle for Christ.

I'm not raising children, I'm raising disciples.

I'm scared for this next generation of children coming up in a world that has already turned their hearts away from them. Growing up in a home where parents have even the slightest resentment towards their children is poison and we don't give them enough credit for what they actually see and feel. I'm sure we can all compile a lengthy list of things to blame for this negative view on children but I feel the only resolution is to start to let God change our own hearts and then flood the world with an overpowering love for children. Whether it's simply showing more patience to our own kids in public or being quick to kneel down and show kindness to the screaming kid in aisle five that is sending his mom running out in shame and fear, there is something we can do. God loves children and even refers to them as arrows that we should fill our quiver's with and my hope and prayer is that we can too start seeing the joy and importance children bring to our lives.

Victoria Nevland-wanderlust




I spent some time with this song playing in my ear and as I rested in the words I was flooded with a sense of God telling me who he is and how my wondering heart always tries to get in the way of his gift to me. His gift of who he is. 
This song really pulls at my heart because its a prayer to take my heart seal it, tune it, and to fix it on God. This prayer of a stillness and a sense of being held and locked to something. A sense that fights the nature of who I've always been. 
But as I try to run, like I tend to do, I sit and think about what my heart is aching to be locked onto. What is this song calling my heart to fix itself to exactly? 



"Your steadfast love, O Lord extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds. Your righteousness is like the mountains of God; your judgments are like the great deep; man and beast you save O Lord. How precious is your steadfast love, O God! The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings. They feast on the abundance of your house, and you give them drink from the river of your delights. For with you is the fountain of life; in your light do we see light."
Psalm 36:6-9

My God, this God we seem so afraid to cling to and follow, is this God. A God of amazing gentleness, who gives rest and brings calm, and who is patiently waiting for us with steadfast love. This God chose me, in all my mess, all my shame, all my brokenness. This God of steadfast love who is faithful beyond reach, who is unchanging and righteous, who protects and who gives us refuge in his mighty wings, who provides for us with abundance and allows us to drink of his delights! He is the fountain of life and he's opened himself up for us. He is now reachable. He is not a distant angry God but is a close and loving God. 

"Therefore the Lord longs to be gracious to you and therefore he waits on high to have compassion on you for the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all those who long for him. Oh people of Zion, inhabitant in Jerusalem, you will weep no longer. He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry; when He hears it He will answer you."
Isaiah 30:18-19

"He will tend his flock like a shepherd; he will gather the lambs in his arms; he will carry them in his bosom, and gently lead those that are with young"
Isaiah 40:11

As I get to know this God I follow I am choosing to no longer give in to my wondering heart. This is an amazing God and I will never be this loved and cherished by anyone else. To think this amazing, gentle, kind, and loving God is for all of us and there is no price to following him. There is no quiz to take, no course to follow, and no deeds to do. He died so all we have to do is lay our lives at his feet, stand up, take his hand, and follow. What a precious gift that has been so misunderstood and so distorted. 
This is a gift I choose to take.

DSC_1332 Niko Knigge
Today I began to bridge a gap that has been left gaping and ignored for far too long in my life and all around me and as I see the gap closing ever so slightly I am filled with excitement and a new joy I haven't experienced yet.


After days of putting it off for reasons too silly to mention, I met with a new friend today. I met this lovely woman months back and was drawn to her heart and her desire for the same God that I too had fallen deeply in love with. This amazing woman would have stayed in the comfortable acquaintance zone simply because she had many years on me but thanks to the way God has been working in my heart I was able to catch a small glimpse of the importance and reward this relationship may hold. So I stepped out. Out of my comfort zone, out of my fear of one on one conversation, and out of the confining hold this separation of generations has had on my life. And I am here to tell you friends that  I am so thankful!

"Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good. and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind and submissive to their husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled." Titus 2:3-5



What a beautiful gift God has given us with these amazing "older women" and oh what we have been missing. I'm so excited to say that I have a woman who I know without a doubt will not only teach me these beautiful things but who is also anxious to. To be taught to be self-controlled, pure, kind, loving, and submissive in order to honor the word of God is to be taught to be like Jesus and what more could we want? So I will step into this uncharted territory and I will fight against my doubt, fear and uncomfortability and I will cling to this gift that God has given me.

I hope not only to absorb the wisdom, kindness, gentility, and patience of the older women God puts in my path but I hope to bring a gift to the table as well. I hope to bring a listening ear, a strong arm to hold, steady feet to walk as far as is needed, a passion to reignite, and a vision to close the rest of the gap. We all have something beautiful to bring to these relationships God has called us to.

"One generation shall commend your works to another, and shall declare your mighty acts."
Psalm 145:4

I think at first glance this verse looks like this is something to be passed down but what if this is a call to pass the word of God's amazing work up and down. That we may be lifted up by the power of God's work in the evidence of a long and beautiful life and that we may also be reignited by the power of God's work in the passion, child-like faith, and fearlessness of a developing life.


So join me.

Join me to end our search for the fountain of youth and to instead settle into the amazing vision God has for our lives in unity together, young and old.
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